Yay! Rant Time!!!

So I've just been told that 3 years back - in grade 11 - there was a rumor going around about me sending pix of myself getting naked to my bf of the time.

o_O .... o... k.....

So i can't help but find a place to rant - which would be this place. A place where one person pops in to read once in a blue moon, and it makes me happy to type to nothing in particular.

See, things like this is EXACTLY why i hated highschool as a highschool student. Ppl are seriously immature. I acted kiddy, but for God's sake most ppl's actual mentality were that of little elementary kids!

I walk around in my underwear in front of my roomie.... "oooOOooOOO i can't believe you hang out with HER"

As tuna brought up, what the fck does it matter to anyone else what a couple does in their romantic life?! Very good point. I was more so thinking that why does such a rumor even have an affect to how they see me when the majority of them spend their money on booze and nights having monkey smex? Because obviously you don't get nekkid having smex.

Okay class, Sex Education is over. Kiddies can go look at the sex shops now. Careful, don't get too close.

I mean, I sit there listening to [insert names] about what dirty little things they did wit their multiple partners. Or I'm the can to spill into when [insert name] is pissed off about [insert name] not doing the right thing on the counter in their kitchen while their parents were away.
[insert name] is proud of herself for servicing her new record of guys of the year.
Then all of a sudden, "Pstt... you shouldn't hang out with her. She had pix of herself sent to her bf"

Gagghhh.
I don't know. Finding out today that such a thing went around highschool just got me really aggravated. Sure, it was 3 years ago... but it serves as a reminder why I hated almost every single person at MDHS.
It's full of spoiled brats who won't know how to live independantly and don't realize there is a reality past your plastic social lives. I was okay with it in grade 9, but by grade 10 I was already feeling the pressure of being surrounded by immature idiots on a daily basis.

See, I act immature. I like acting like a kid. I thought I was immature.
Until I met kids my age in Markham. A lot seem mature, or act it, or whatever.. but when it comes down to it, do you really have to decided whether to go out with the more popular of friends or stay tight with the ppl who provide u benefits? ... -_-''

I guess its the type of community.. .or something. When we were going to school in Scarborough, kids weren't like this. Maybe cuz the neighborhood I went to school in was on the poor side, and kids were not neccessarily good but a lot of us didn't have the type of parental love that apparently all these kids here at Markham do. I remember 2 particular students in my grade in Scarborough are like how most Markham kids are... they labeled themselves the "popular" ones but nobody else liked them. We always thought they were way too spoiled for their own good... then when the parents saw them at grad, lol... that was great, the parents talking down on those few.

This is probably why when I came to Markham I was automatically turned off. To me, it was that type of kid multiplied by a number greater than i can count on my fingers. In high school i talk to Scarborough and Toronto friends, and wonder why the fck itz so diff and not annoying compared to MDHS.

Well.... i've repeated myself enuf times. this makes me feel a little better.

Like, Oh My Gosh, he is like, totally not so cool so like, let's not talk to him. He, like, has this gf that like, is so, not, cool.

Like, Totally.

so everything balances out?

So I had a horrible day. So horrid I don't think I want to begin typing about it now that I'm in a good mood, no thanks to Dave. But to give an idea, it was upsetting to the point where I wanted to just get away from everyone. It was aggravating to the point where I wanted to shoot a whole bunch of people because oh God how ANNOYING certain people are! It was... kay I stop there.

Well I got home. I talked to Dave a bit - which did NOT help at all. And so I started to chat with ppl online.

So I'm talking to Justin, and I hear Chrono flip or whack something downstairs. So I went to investigate. Well, earlier I attached a food bowl above the corner of the cage that he goes potty in - which he's not supposed to. He has a litter box for a reason. He was trying to jam his little bunbun bumbum under the food bowl into his personal washroom... so what I saw was a fluffy bunny with his behind firmly wedged into the corner under a food bowl.

Bai Bai Boo Boo

Booboo died in his sleep this morning of old age.
He went peacefully, still curled in his tiny sleepi-ball. His eyes and mouth softly closed [indicating no struggle or pain]

I made a little coffin for him and just finished seeing him off into it.
Burying him tomorrow morning.

RIP Booboo...


... Kiki's the same age as Boo, so it won't be long now....

*sniffles*

apchoo

[insert blah]

i hate fevers

i have a fever in the middle of summer... my god -_-

doop dee doop

imma chargin mah lazor!!!

*shoop da whoop*

OMFG - Ontario Mega Finance Group

for title: OMFG

Aite. So I work at College Pro Painters with Kate, Cato, Amy... and Shaunessy and Shane, but they are not in my focus range right now. Right now, be prepared for a STFU music rant. If you wish to save your IQ, please leave.

Okay, so myself included, there are/were 4 MDHS music-ies working on this crew. Obviously, music talk is inevitable. And I was okay with it first. Sure, I was bitter. They all get to continue on with their music career, while I was forced out of it. Carpel tunnel syndrome is definitely not my friend -_-''
So much talk about their bands and music-everything going on. And Jo did not (and still does not) have the right to stop it. But Jo needs to vent somewhere, so let it be here.

Now, Jo and her friends attend an ART UNIVERSITY for God's sake. Outside of business and academics though, we rarely make any reference to visual art. It is not like we are not involved in it.. but no matter how I look at it, it just seems that music kids from MDHS don't know how to have a good time without mentioning said subject. It's like, they DON'T know, or DON'T have anything to say unless it's about music. As if it's the only thing that keeps them together.

This may or may not be true. Either way, it really starts to piss me off. Especially now. I mean, c'mon, we're *painting houses*. Our band this, this band that, she gossipy this, he gossipy that. "Subsiste Sermonem Statim" StfUniversity -_- (reference)
I don't know if Shane and Shaunessy are okay with it or not. Frankly, I don't care. I've had to deal with so many obnoxious hypocrites in one single program during high school, I've wanted to escape that. I've want to hang out with these people and talk about *things*. In a way so that it won't feel like we have to depend on that one thing to keep us going.

Now I've grown to not even care whether or not I talk to MDHS music kiddies anymore. I've just given up. Everything HAS to go back to music. A moment of silence HAS to lead back to music. I mean, C'MON. So I've given up.
But watching/listening is almost just as bad.
I've gotten over my bitterness about my own disability. There is no way around it - it's either I drop music or lose both my arms. So I spent the first year of university pretty much getting over that. The last month or two, I haven't been feeling the emotional impact of my lack of musical performance.

But somehow, for some reason, this music-dependent talk just really really pisses me off. In my head I keep screaming "ARGH. Are you guys that FRAGILE?!"
Maybe so. It shouldn't be any of my business. So for one post, against many people's favor I will make it my business.

Michelle and I are both in OCAD for art. We LIVE together and are going to be for the rest of university. We can have a great time talking about art. But we have equally if not more so of a blast without giving it a single mention for weeks or months.
Obviously academic questions and opinions are inevitable. But academics don't exactly count to having a good time. Lol. To clarify, we don't avoid the subject. But despite the randomness, we can talk about so many things or about nothing, and it would be the most amazing time spent together. We don't see each other for months - so have you finally found yourself a job? A waitress?! Haha. Oh yea, I saw Jess the other day. Yea, I think the moon is really made of cheese. I hope it's Harvarti.

Okay, this is getting long. I will cut off shortly.

During high school, I felt proud to be a quick learner in music. I was so passionate about it, I seriously considered it my future. But as my high school education progressed, many people of this subject seemed to steer into the opposite lane. All of a sudden the "popular music *geeks*" had Hypocrite stamped on their foreheads. At first I felt that maybe it was just a phase... I'll go with the flow and it'll come clean. But not only did it not, it also got worse. Suddenly they were the pro gossiping preps, especially when certain someone (probably unconsciously) decided it was popular to stick Rob Christian in the spotlight. ALL the time.
So much for individuality. So much for maturity. So much for responsibility.

Anyways, this post originally started as a rant about how it's so pathetic that it seems MDHS music kids' relationships with other people depend on the subject. I guess I didn't sidetrack that much.

I'll probably get shot for this. Lol.
But I feel so much better with this off my chest. I've ranted before.. true. What I think it is this time is just that I return a year later to find it all the more pathetic than when I left.

And I thought being Otaku was bad. But Otaku's seem to talk about everything, until something like an event pops up. Then they become rabid fangirls and some fanboys. Lol.

I don't mind flaming. I do not feel like I could bring myself to care.
Because now that I've ranted, I feel like this issue won't be bothering me anymore for a long while. That's unfortunately how it works with me. It doesn't seem to be worth my time to throw a fit more than once on matters that annoy me.

Beam me up, Scotty.

ZOMGWTFBBQ - CCPLZ o_O

LoL
wow... i suddenly remember as i'm making my deviantart profile that I HAVE A BLOG.
@_@
and i spent the last while reading up on my old posts while thinking to myself: wow i was an idiot.
we were allll idiots.
o_O

oki. so 1st yr of OCAD is over. working my ass off at Mark's Work Warehouse, College Pro Painters, and doing several commissions.
movin out with Michelle soon to Elm Place with a bunbun, two hamhams, and a kitti.

bun = Chrono
ham1 = Kiki
ham2 = Boo
kitti = Bus
XD

let's see...
while reading up on my last few posts from last year, i realized how much i've changed.
i dont give a crap about anyone or anything anymore ^-^
not a good change i suppose.

hm... if anything, i feel very motivated to do many things i guess ppl wud label "good"... like working a lot, building on my portfolio, taking breaks [ZOMG she's taking BREAKS]
although i've been really stressed about money problems ... strangely i feel a lot better.
working at Best Buy selling games should have been fun - i mean, if there is ANYTHING i would want to sell when working in retail, it would be games. but now i work in clothing retail... but i guess the environment [the co-workers] is just so much better.
College Pro is backbreaking work... but i like doing it.

so much pain in completely different ways. lol. good pain? o_O is there such a thing as good pain? o_O

the one thing that definately hasnt changed though, is that i haven't cut my hair. i HAVE stopped dying it. my hair's fallin out by the brush-load as a result from dying my hair every month or few. plus, it's gotten longer. about 2-3 more inches til my knees. pretty good considering so much is falling out and that it grows slow cuz i dont fix my split ends.
oh oh oh. i've also gained weight. i'm actually avg now! o_O i've been stuck at 113 for so many years. for my height i was supposed to be 120. and now im 121. lol.
i don't like my chubbier-than-ever-cheeks. and i've gained a tummy. but i got slight boobature as a result ^-^ a full-booming B !!!
well i guess if i ever need or want to, i can always lose the weight. but as it is now, it feels a lot better than being sickly all the time and flat-chested.
sure, i'd like a C... but considering i'm asian, i'll settle for a B for now. =3
gotta eat more to stuff more fat in there. XD

i looked at myself in the mirror recently, and realized that finally i'm almost proportional. the only thing that sets it off is a 1-cup-too-small-boobature. but they're still growing [as confirmed last week] ^-^ anyways.. i've nvr been proportional my entire life. and being an artist who reeli focuses on proportionally-accurate figures, it realli sux.
but. i'm almost there ^-^
i guess being a little chubbier doesn't bother me that much, as long as my top and bottom halves look balanced out in the mirror i cudnt reeli care less. it's my biggest problem with myself afterall. lol.

well, i'm not sure if anyone will actually read this. more than anything i think this is for myself to look back on later and see if i've changed any. just like how my jaw dropped when i realized what a fcked up idiot i was posting the things i did the year before.
^-^

well, bye bye Jo. maybe the next time you read this, you would have cut ur hair @_@

PS. Jo is still with Dave =3

yesterday was commencement

so i havent updated in forever. forgot i had a blog

wednesday was our 11th anniv.
thursday was commencement. which made me realize that
i can count all the MDHS ppl i like on my two hands.

aint it just great? commencement. reunions. and meeting ppl on the street that u have some faint idea of who they are because maybe they went to the same elementary or high skool.
all of a sudden they love you - even if there was a hate-hate or hate-idc relationship between said person and u.

i realize i havent been very nice as of the past half yr. i dun reely giv much of a crap thoe -_-''
as most ppl who knew me from elementary or gr9, i was nice to everyone. and was pretty much ready to catapult myself into a spikey cow.

yes, a spikey cow. ph33r its aluminum spiked utters.

so eventually i became pretty happi by the end of gr11/beginning of gr12. if i didnt like u, u'd either know or didnt kno i really existed - if at all. if i liked u, i wud talk to u. if i didnt like u but found there was a need to talk to u, i wud speak to u using the least time-consuming method possible. if u were the in-between ppl where most of the time i found u annoying but sometimes get a kick to see how idiotic u are, i occasioncally talk to u.

yesh, things were simple for the past year. and it gave me relaxation to hear "u bitch" rather than "jo! i luv uuu" from ppl who definately need to relearn the use of certain vocab.
u dun say "i luv u" to someone u wanna shoot in the face with jelli bullets.

yesh jelli. because althoe many of us wud imagine using tiny metal pellets, not many of us actually wud.

so now that we're outta high skool, i get this impression that im supposed to throw that way of mine out the 7th floor windo on planet pluto [which apparently aint a planet no more - which makes me sad].
it feels like i'm supposed to generously greet a person - say mr.moo who graduated from the same high skool - should i meet them on a random street in the wonderful land of cheese.
chances are, if i'm being greeted out of the usual 'bitch' or such, i wud stick him head-first into the lovely cheese sidewalk and hope his bodyheat melts the cheese around him til he suffocates and dies.
'bitch' would earn him a slight breeze as a result of me walking by.

yes. obviuosly i have had many encounters since univ started..otherwise i wudnt be bitching so much about it. mr.moo should have been thrown at the spikey cow utter.

so anyways

PLUTO IS NOT A PLANET ANYMORE
old news. but i havent updated. -_-

so there are some freeki idiots who found my email thru some networks i didnt sign up for, and like angelus before them, they request i be their significant other... despite the fact i have a bf.
and that we're in diff countries.
and that they are desperate retards.
and that i say nuoooo.
and that.... well nutin else much. they annoy me. and freak me out. and piss me off. and

i want soup.
i thnk i'll go make soup.
yes, that's what i'll do.


soup.






my b-day is in 5 months. GET ME HAIR DYE.
brand: Loreal BOLD
color: FUSCHIA

thank u =D

PS
come to Best Buy Bay+Dundas
for our Grand Opening we had BEYONCE and JOHN MAYER.. and a bunch of WWE dudes and other things.
we also had JAMES BLUNT and FREDDY KREUGER and random other celebrities i cant remember off the top of my head.
we basically got celebs here every two weeks or so.
of course it wont always be like this. it's jus a new store =D

grr? lol

sometimes talkin to certain ppl frustrate me.

[insert RAWR]

lol. ah well.
everyone's hated and loved. it's about time i start expanding the Jo-Haters list.
cuz there is no way that all those ppl that claim they like/love me really did.
it's just now that we're older, everyone's growing less afraid to show it. finally.

and im gettin less afraid to show how little i care - which as a result, more ppl end up pretending they like me. lol.

"peepo are fanni"


truu i came to markham from scarborough + toronto. but.
i love markham. [cough]

psh.

my last week in markham

so i havent posted the entire summer.

i reely dun care... cuz it's the type of memories where u dun wanna share wit other ppl except for those involved. lol.


but today was comical...bloody..but comical... and since i havent posted all summer and i'm take a break right now, might as well post.

so the last two days [saturday and sunday] it was training at Best Buy downtown. and all the great things said and done - cannot be explained unless you were there =D

Who Are We?!
NINE SEVEN SEVEN
Hey Bull Dogs!
LET'S GET REVVIN!!! WHOO!!!

HoPaaaaaa

7 3 1

NOT ON MY SHIFT!!!

Op Op Op Op Op
vs
HD HD HD HD HD
vs
Qurururrurru
vs
YO! [thatz us media, YO =P]
vs
all the not so good ones =P jk

Drapes

Yams

RTFM

in addition to the weekend of games [NSO Kickoff] yesterday Andy, Kent, Dave and Jojo went to Sapporo. then Unionville Main Street. then threw things at ducks at TooGood Pond.
why is this special?
because Andy and Kent i met both on MS. and they are both awesomeeee =D

and big thing.. TODAY!!!!
our first shipment. CDs. over 10,000 of them today.... more later -_-'' being 2moro. along with dvds, vhs, games.... we're stockin up this week. chaotic.
so 10 minutes into cutting open the boxes..Media team cutting the zip ties with exacto knives... somehow the knife cut thru, rebounded at me, and as i blocked it from hitting my face with my left hand... WHOOSH i slash my index finger.
and it spewed blood like a drinking fountain for at least 10 minutes. then a supe, Loren, stuck 6layers of gauze and 2rounds of tape over it.
"wow, yay! MY FIRST PATIENT"
"We shud take a pic of Jo. first 977 injury!" [977 is our store number]
so 4 hrs after that, i feel that there is gauze under my skin and every time the gauze moved, i felt it painfully tuggin from the inside of my skin. so i ask another supe to plz get the first aid kit so i can rebandage it.
so we carefully took off the gauze..thinking my wound is pretty much closed since i felt the gauze stuck in my skin. it wasnt stuck at all... in fact, i was still bleeding quite a lot...FOUR hours after the injury took place -_-''
so we bandaged it back up with a simple bandage since it wasnt spewing anymore. less than 5minutes after getting back on the Floor to work, WHAM i get a nosebleed. a reely bad one.
i run to the bathroom and thankfully someone was there to help me..cuz it was one of those nosebleeds where the blood is comin out so fast you get blood everywhere no matter how fast u try to stop it with a change of clean towels.
so about 10 minutes later of doing a shitload of diff things, it finally stops.
then continue work =D
i get home... my sock is kinda wet-feeling and i figured it was just sweat. i took off my sock and something wasnt right..some of the fabric clung to my ankle before i ripped it off my skin. it turns out it wasnt sweat... my sock was wet with blood and i cudnt see it cuz my sock was black. -_-''

so.. i bled 3 times today... blood lose... YESHHHH oh i feel special -_-''

oh oh. Best Buy SOFT OPENING is on SEPTEMBER 9TH!!!!!
GRAND OPENING ON SEPTEMBER 15TH!!!!!

btw i'll b announcing the concert dates and details later. itz gona be BIG.
the previous grand opening [montreal] the concert was performed by Black Eyed Peas. apparently [manager wun tell us yet] these artists performing for us are bigger, and there are TWO diff concerts [two diff groups]. all happening at yonge+dundase square.
1st concert = friday september 15th
2nd concert = saturday september 16th
gamez = sunday september 17th
what the sunday is, is all the vendors will be there with screens and consoles ALL AROUND the Best Buy and Geek Squad booths in the square. ppl get to walk by and play games on the diff consoles.
and
YOU GET TO PLAY GAMES ON THE TWO HUGE SCREENS IN THE SQUARE.
=D

so ye ppl, book those days off and come visit us if you want =D when we find out [itz a surprise for the employees until the week of] i'll post which bands they are.

anywho... now my slashed finger is starting to throb a bit again... typing too much.

signing out =D

can't sleep

ugh. ok. so im dead tired since i've been around all day and i didnt sleep last night. but yet again, i lie in bed for hours and can't seem to fall asleep.

something about my left arm feels really uncomfortable (more like my left shoulder...) .. seems to be keeping me awake. not like it hurts or anything..but ..ugh, so annoying.

so yes. now i'm awake. and i should probably clean my room. but i dun feel lik doing anything -_-'' it's been a long few days.

Mizuki Nana - Eternal Blaze
very very good song. was used in a Rozen Maiden AMV that was done extremely well by the well known Hirokome.